Pleasure

I don’t know how many times Kaaren said this to me.

The first few times I didn’t believe him.

But it soon became clear that he was telling me the truth.

And what a lovely truth it was! 

Mrs K

Surprised

I know it sounds funny but I loved coming home and finding my Kaaren dressed in something frilly, waiting for me and sometimes my date as well.

He was so cute.

I miss that. 

I wish you all a merry Christmas.

Mrs K

Yes

I just thought this was cute.

Kaaren didn’t have any sisters but he  frequently fantasized about this type of scenario.

I’m not sure if this is how things would have gone i it had been one of my brothers. Just trying to picture it makes me laugh.

It was different with Kaaren though, he looked absolutely adorable in his bikini.

Mrs K

Hump Day

 Most men who fucked my Sweetheart preferred to take him doggie style.

I always thought it was funny that the man found eye contact more difficult than Kaaren.

I mean Kaaren was on the receiving end after all.

The first few times I had to make him open his eyes and look at the real man who was using him like a sex toy.

But after a while Kaaren enjoyed it so much that he loved it any way he could get it.

Kaaren was a very sexual person.

And I was so glad that he was!

Mrs K

Commercials

As I’ve noted before, Kaaren had a wicked sense of humor.

I saw the punchline coming a mile away but I still enjoyed it.

There were many times that he could make me laugh so hard that I’d have tears streaming down my face.

That was one of the main reasons I fell in love with him.

He was always nice and he was so cute and funny that I never considered any other man to share a life with.

I was more successful in business than he’d been but I think he was better at being happy than anyone else I’ve ever met.

I can picture him now,  kneeling next to me while I read this, with a mischievous little smile while he waited for me to “get it”. 

Of all the myriad things I miss about him, I think that all the laughter is one of the things I miss the most.

Mrs K

Grit Your Teeth Sweetheart

I’ve seen my Sweetheart taking some pretty hefty men inside him  and listened to him  beg for more.

At the same time I still remember the first time I slipped a finger inside him and listened to him groaning that it was too big.

The first time I used my strap-on, oh my goodness, I’m surprised that the neighbors didn’t call the police.

He was very loud! Begging me to stop and then begging me for more.

The secret about Kaaren was that he always wanted more!

Mrs K 

Fresh Air

Yes I did spank him. Sometimes I did it outside in outside in our backyard.

We had a nice sized property that afforded us some degree of privacy. Not complete privacy but close.

The one neighbor who had a relatively clear view of our yard was an elderly woman who lived next door.

Her vision wasn’t too good and her memory was failing but we loved her like a surrogate mom to us both.

On more than one occasion she asked me who the “young lady” was that she had seen. I told her that ‘she” was our part time housekeeper and she was satisfied with that.

We were both very surprised and embarrassed one day when we discovered that our neighbor’s granddaughter had moved in and we saw her watching Kaaren get his spanking outside.

But it turned out alright.

She was just amused and she told me that she had fun watching.

I loved when she’d be there and I’d make Kaaren smile and wave to her as he went over my knees.

It was all so much fun.

Mrs K

Envy

I loved coming home and changing into my comfy jeans and a tee shirt.

It was so nice to kick off my heels and just relax.

Kaaren almost never did that. It was all skirts and dresses for him. He loved it and that’s what was most comfortable for him.

For heaven’s sake he wore his bra to bed sometimes. I never ever did that!

But he always looked so pretty.

Even if I looked like a bum.

Mrs K

OMG Kaaren

Yes Kaaren had a small one.

Not microscopic, but small.

The very first time l gave him a blowjob I could take him all in my mouth without gagging.

He was embarrassed about it and very easily humiliated because of it.

I don’t know if it added to his submissive nature or maybe it caused it, who can say,

But being exposed to a group was almost more than he could take.

Almost but not quite. 

He cringed at the humiliation but he craved it too.

As I’ve said before, Kaaren was complicated.

Mrs K

Monday ManCandy

I meant to post this one earlier but I had a very busy day.

Kaaren loved to post these “Mancandy” posts.

My Sweetheart was very,very orally inclined. Even at the beginning he didn’t need much encouragement from me, he was a natural at sucking cock.

It’s funny when I think of it now. I was worried that I might have been pushing him too far, but he didn’t need a push, he just needed permission to do it.

Sitting across from him while he ate a banana was almost like watching a porn film! Seriously, he did it almost every time I don’t even think he realized he was doing it.

He got to live out his fantasy and I got to watch. That had been my fantasy!

We were made for each other.

Mrs K

That Smile

For all of her whining Kaaren followed my orders with a smile.

Sometimes I had to put him over my knees just because of that smile.

Sometimes putting him over my knees and correcting him until he was in tears made his smiles go away for a short time.

But they always came back, for both of us.

He had a very pretty smile.

Mrs K

Retirement

This is absolutely true, I remember that day very clearly.

Kaaren was a little uncomfortable because I made him wear his “boy” clothes, after all his was a professional meeting not a date.

However Kaaren always managed to be a little naughty, I couldn’t help but notice a bit of his lacy chemise peeking out every time he leaned forward.

And yes, he went over my knee later just as I’m sure he planned all along.

When I found this post in his drafts folder it was the rare occasion where it was the picture he had included that got to me more than the words.

Yes,that would have been a wonderful way to spend our retirement together.

Really would have been wonderful.

Mrs K

Not The One

This one covered a few of my Kaaren's favorite things.

Kaaren had a real love of worshiping my feet. It wasn’t something that I enjoyed at first but I grew to love it as I indulged him.

It also covers his love of the “magic bench” type of fantasy that he shared with his friend and fellow blogger Dee Mentia. He often told me that he wished that there was real magic in the world.

I wish there was too.

Mrs K

Rewarded

This is a true story.

My Sweetheart didn’t get this treatment very often but I did love to see “her” face when “she” did!

He asked me to write on his blog often and it was fun with him kneeling and keeping me entertained while I wrote.

I wish he was here now while I write this 

Mrs K

Home Soon

Kaaren didn’t have much of a family growing up.

A distant mother and an abusive father. One brother who died in his teens.

I’m sure that my Sweetheart dreamed of having a family like this, people who would have cared about him.

He grew up to be so different from his parents that I still find it hard to believe.

He was so nice and loving and warm. Nothing like the people who raised him.

Now I’ve made myself cry again. 

I wish you could have known him as I did.

Mrs K

Monday ManCandy

I had hoped to share this wonderful treat with my sweetheart till we were old and gray but maybe he’d had enough for a lifetime.

Although I really doubt it.

Mrs K

Hard To Believe

Yes, Kaaren wasn’t the only perv in our relationship, not by any measure!

I had/have plenty of my own desires and fetishes.

I was so lucky to have had someone who loved me enough to explore them with me.

Mrs K

First Time

I like this one very much, it captures a big part of the story of the love Kaaren and I shared.

Today is the sad anniversary of that terrible first night when I lost my Sweetheart.

I’m still heartbroken but I’ve stopped crying every day.

But today I’m just reliving that last day, that last time I saw him smiling, the last time I told him that I loved him.

Today I can’t say I miss him more than any other day, after a year of missing him, today makes it feel a little more painful.

Thank you very much for your nice comments on these posthumous posts, I hope you enjoy them

Mrs K

Saturday Matinee - The Hi-Fi Fiend

Kaaren wrote Saturday Matinee posts for years and i quite enjoyed them.

This one was obviously written in the wrong blog and so he never used it.

It’s a little outdated but I still think it’s pretty funny.

It made me smile and that’s not easy these days.

I hope you enjoy it.

Mrs K

Sissy In The Kitchen

This is the oldest post in my Sweethearts draft folder on this blog.

I like this one very much.it reminds me of Kaarens antics in the kitchen.

He was so much fun, and he knew what I liked. Sometimes he knew me better than I did!

Mrs K

Embarrassment

This is the last post that kaaren wrote before he left me behind.

There are more than 440 more to go.

I hope you enjoy them.

Mrs K 

Some Thoughts

Today is Kaaren’s birthday.

I’m trying not to cry for him.

I’m trying to think of the good times we had.

But I miss him more every day.

 I've been thinking about what to do about my Kaaren's blogs.

I have decided that I will leave them up for people to get to know Kaaren, and I felt it would be disrespectful to remove them.

Kaaren loved the blogs. He liked to play and tease and tell, if not all, as much as he could get away with.

In all the years that he was doing this I only made him take down a couple of his posts that I thought made him too identifiable.

My career counted on avoiding scandal, and stories of my sissy husband sucking my lover's big cock didn't really seem like a career enhancing addition to my resume'.

But I digress.

Kaaren has left literally hundreds of posts in her drafts folder on these blogs. 

I leave it to you, his audience, should I post them or is that kind of morbid?

I can see just from sampling them that, at least some of them weren't quite finished.

I truly dislike the idea of throwing away my sweethearts work.

Thank you all for your thoughts and prayers.

Mrs. K.