Kaaren didn’t have many friends and the man he was writing about here was pretty much his only real friend that he had left.
He was devastated by the news of the death of his friend.
But even though he was reeling from the loss he was still concerned that I was okay.
It was the way he was.
He was hurt and an emotional wreck but he was worried about getting my dinner.
I think back now and realize how isolated he was.
Without my family and friends he only had me.
Our lives were full in so many ways that I never really saw that.
And I know it must have hurt him but he never complained.
He could be prodded to talk about his past but he mostly kept it to himself.
Maybe if he’d had more time he’d have opened up more about it.
That’s one good thing about his “silly little blogs”. It gave him a place to talk and, even more importantly, it gave him people who would listen.
In the end he was loved by me and many others.
Maybe more than he knew.
Mrs K
She knows me so well....
"What is it Sissy?"
"Frank died.....months ago....I just found out....."
Oh Sweetheart I'm so sorry....do you want to talk about it....I know you two were very close...."
"It's just that.....I've been kicking around old memories all day....so many happy times....he was so full of life....it's hard to think of a world without him...."
"How old was he Sweetheart..."
"I'm not really sure....older than me....but still too young....way too young...."
She took me into her arms and just let me cry on her shoulder....the tears just wouldn't stop....and she just held me and stroked my hair and let me get it all out....
"I'm sorry, I shouldn't be such a baby like this....but I can't help it...."
"Sweetheart.....that's what I love most about you!!!"
"I'm not really hungry....would you mind getting your own dinner....I just want to curl up....maybe read some poetry.....I'm probably not going to be good company tonight anyway...."
"Go ahead Sissy....I think I can still remember how to cook.....if you need anything....anything at all....just call me and let me know....I love you Sweetheart!!!!
"I love you too......thank you!"
*One of the best people that ever walked the earth has left us....this is pretty much the conversation my wife and I had about it....
"It's just that.....I've been kicking around old memories all day....so many happy times....he was so full of life....it's hard to think of a world without him...."
ReplyDeleteAnd that's how I felt when I read the blog when you told us that Kaaren had passed on .. and how I think about him ever since. I read the other blog too, and you can tell it affected him deeply.
He had a shitty past, but that didn't matter once you came back into his life. You made his present so much better, and he didn't need to worry about his future. Much love to you as always, Mrs. K.
No words...just offering hugs.
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